Got a problem with me? (CAM)

[Cham]

Ravenna allowed Noah to drag his feet for a while once they were out of the house. She tried not to show it, but she was exhausted, and in some serious pain. Her entire body ached, but she felt guilt as Noah was easily carrying at least three times the amount she was. He paused for a moment, and she looked up at him with a sad smile, both wishing to move on, and get to his parents as soon as possible, but wanting to allow him the mourning and grief he would need to release.

So with the moment break, she set down her bag, and wrapped her arm around Noah's waist, leaning up to kiss his cheek "Dont worry darling. We are quite literally moving forward with out lives. This will always be a home to you, but we will make a new one." His soft smile put her at ease and she gathered her bag into her hand once more, nodding to his instructions. Anything she said would only make things worse.

And off they went. It didnt take long to reach his parents house, and the route was beginning to become more familiar. She frowned at the thought that it wouldnt be soon, and she would have to learn a whole new way to get there. The door suddenly loomed closer, and her stomach began to knot.

Glaring eyes opened to them, peering out from the crack of the door that had opened. Noah spoke quickly and quietly. She slipped her hand into his when he started to get carried away. He glanced oat her through the corner of his eye, and clearly saw how tired she was despite her trying to hide it.

Moments after Noah had finished, the door still remained closed. So Ravenna took matters into her own hand, saying "I believe this is the part where you open the door." She dropped Noah's hand, and grabbed her bag, using her shoulder to shove the door open. "Thank you for your hospitality Mrs. Culver." She gave Ravenna an icy glare and nodded slowly.

[Lotus]

Noah's eyes widened slightly when Ravenna decided she'd intervene. He sighed softly and ran a hand over his face before following her inside, after picking up the remainder of their bags. Storm followed after Noah and sat by his feet when Noah dropped the bags to the floor. "Thanks mother." He said in a fairly monotone voice.

At that moment he heard a squeal from the top of the stairs, and there stood Moni with a huge grin spread across her face. "Hey there missy!" Noah called softly, as she started making her way down the stairs. Following swiftly behind her was his father and he shuddered whilst his father and mother exchanged glances and questioning looks.

"We're only here for one night. Our house was vandalised, completely. We just need someone safe before we look for somewhere new tomorrow. Then I'll be out of your hair again." He informed his father, to which he simply nodded.

"Very well son. But no trouble and if there is any, your out. For good. No visits to this house or to see Moni again. You've screwed up enough lives."

Noah swallowed over the lump in his throat and nodded his head stiffly. Moni wrapped her arms around him and he managed a smile as he kissed the top of her head. "I'll be right down sweetie." With the he pulled her from him and took all their bags, hoping Storm and Ravenna would follow him up the stairs and to his old bedroom, where they would be staying the night.

[Cham]

Ravenna was exhausted. Emotionally and physically. Her facade of strength had holes punched through it, so conserving what little energy she had left, she dropped it. Rolling her eyes at Mr. Culver, and proceeding up the stairs as Noah guided her. Feeling his strength holding her up.

Pushing the door open, she dropped her bags beside the bed, and flopped onto it. Groaning out, and holding a blind hand out to Noah. After a moment, she could feel his hand in hers. Imagining his brows knit with worry for her. Sighing, she wriggled until she was on her back, tugging on Noah's hand until he lay next to her, her head on his chest "Can we just rest for a moment? 5 minutes tops. Then we can go pretend to be nice."

Her nose burrowed into his neck, inhaling the scent of salt from the sea, sand, and pure Noah. This was her favourite place. His arms around her, her snuggled up to him. Like they were the only two people in the world. Her finger knit into his hair, and twirled it, murmuring "Its only one night... We can leave before they wake up. And tonight I can call around, see where there are empty homes. I still have a friend or two..."

[Lotus]

Noah sunk down on the bed next to Ravenna and instantly wrapped his arms around her. He felt calmer being with her, upstairs, than downstairs where his family were. They were going to push every nerve in him and it was going to take everything in him not to snap. Storm then jumped up onto the bed and snuggled down at their feet, which seemed to lighten the mood a little seeing as Noah heard Ravenna chuckle a little.

He bent his head and kissed the top of her head before whispering, "You stay up here and rest. You're exhausted and you need to give yourself time to heal." He extricated himself from her and stood up off the bed before bringing up a blanket and tucking it around her. "I love you." He whispered softly before kissing her softly on the lips. "I'll be downstairs and if you need something send Storm down, he knows how to find me. He forced a grin onto his face before making Storm stay by Ravenna's feet and he walked out of the room and back downstairs.

His mother, father and Moni were all sitting in the living room; his parents faces in the set mask of disapproval. He sighed and ran a hand over his face before stepping into the room. "I really am sorry for the intrusion." He seemed to frighten them all a little, but Moni just grinned and ran in his direction before flinging herself into his awaiting arms.

[Cham]

Ravenna listened to Noah's voice, but felt the vibrations more. She didnt want to simply rest, she wanted to help. But when she tried to sit up, and only succeeded in making herself dizzy, she decided to take his advice, and stay in bed. She could nap. And Noah could handle himself for an hour. Because there was no way she was waiting any longer than that.

A moment later, she had already closed her eyes, felt almost jolted when Noah tucked the blanket around her body to preserve her body heat. She puckered into the gentle, but just long enough kiss. Her eyes blinking open unevenly as he spoke again, a smile serving as her returned 'i love you' her body just didnt seem up to mustering the breath to say it.

She was asleep before the door closed behind him.

****

When she awoke, the room was dimly lit. Her head pounded, and her body ached from laying in one spot too long. When she shifted, her body groaned. Oh no. That was actually her mouth. The silence was loud, and she felt like she couldnt handle it any long. So up she went. Unfortunately, she sat up to quickly, the room spun, and she felt slightly nauseous. But she hadnt eaten anything in hours.

Blinking several times seemed to help before she took the chance to stand up. Her kneed wobbled, and once again she found herself having to take the time to stand. It was as though there was cotton in her ears. She couldnt quite figure out what it is that didnt feel right, but whatever it was, was just off.

Her feet felt like lead as she took her time walking down the stairs. Everything was quiet, and Ven wondered if she was dreaming or not. She had to be, because when she walked into the living room, everything SEEMED peaceful. Noah on one chair, by himself, his parents on the couch adjacent, and Moni running her fingers over a paper with bumps on it. Ven didnt particularly care what the Culvers were doing, and showed them by walking straight over to Noah, and plopping into his lap. She pulled her feet up, and snuggled into his neck.

"Dun feel good" She whimpered. Though admittedly, his scent did ease whatever it was that felt wrong...

[Lotus]

Noah was finding it incredibly difficult to be in the same room as the both of his parents, and it looked as if they weren't going to leave him alone with Moni any time soon. They didn't trust him, he knew that. He was the one that blinded Moni, he was the one to ruin her life. He was the son they wished they'd never had and he was the son that had gone from having everything going for him to being a complete and utter disappointment with no hopes other than to ruin lives. He ran a hand across his face for the umpteenth time that night, and Moni looked in his direction; obviously hearing his exasperated sigh. She stood up and came in his direction, sitting down next to him before snuggling in to his side. He smiled and kissed the top of her head, wishing he could reverse the past and blind himself rather than his sweet little sister.

Just then a thumping down the stairs sounded and he looked towards the door just in time to see Ravenna stumbling through. Instantly he tried to get up to go to her but she came to him and practically fell into his lap. He instantly wrapped his arms around her and caught her words. He kissed the top of her head and held her tightly to his chest, "Baby, what's wrong? What hurts?" He asked, rather worriedly. He knew she was in pain from the way her nose scrunched up and she should be from the beating her so-called sister and group gave to her when she was in the worst place possible. He still blamed himself for having caused her to run off.

He looked up to his mother and she looked fairly flustered with the sight of Ravenna. Whilst his mother may not love him anymore, she still cared about all the people Noah ruined so he knew she would be on hand to help. His father on the other hand could not care less and just went back to reading his paper. Moni perked up then and tried asking Ravenna questions, but it seemed to all be to no avail.

[Cham]

Ravenna simply snuggled further into Noah's neck when everyone began to pester her about her well being. This had never happened before. No one ever cared about her like this. But she clearly had something wrong with her that she couldnt handle on her own. Her joints pinched when she shifted, causing her to groan into Noah's neck. He tried to pull her out, but she wouldnt budge, just wanting to be held. Her skin was pale and clammy, but warm. Too warm. Her stomach felt like it was churning. Rocking what little she had in her back and forth.

It took ages for her to assess herself, and realize what she wanted. "Can i have some water?" She whispered. Despite wanting it, she didnt want to move, and DEFINITELY didnt want Noah to leave her. Even as she asked, her knuckles when white clinging onto his shirt, shaking with the intensity.

[Lotus]

Noah began to panic when she wouldn't respond, but then he heard the feeble asking of water and he looked up to his mother. However much he wanted to look strong in front of his parents, the terror running though him and the strange turn in Ravenna's health was getting to him. "Mother? Please? Water? Please?" His words were a mess, but his mother understood seeing as she rushed out of the room and moments later she came back with a glass of water. She handed it to Noah before crouching down in front of the pair.

"Baby? Here's your water. You've got to show me that beautiful face of yours if you want it." He soothed her, hoping she'd relax enough to take a sip. He looked back up to his mother and this time he was shocked to not see the scrutinising eyes of the mother he'd started to know, but rather the one that idolised him as her son. He pleaded with her, with his eyes and she understood to call a doctor. Ravenna had to be okay, he couldn't lose her now; not when he'd just got her.

[Cham]

Ravenna sighed, knowing that he was right. She would have to move eventually. So sniffling, she began to sit up, grimacing, but doing it. When she saw his mother moving towards the phone, she spoke again "No, its nothing serious, please dont worry, i just need some water." She took the glass from Noah, and didnt stop drinking til it was gone. It didnt seem to be enough, but she didnt want to bother anyone by asking for another glass. The nausea subsided, if only for a moment.

And back into Noah's shoulder she went. This time not as far though. The water made her feel marginally better. It felt as though it had seeped into her bones, liquefying her. And for several minutes, she felt fine.

That was until the bile rose.

Previous experience told her she had exactly 15 seconds to get to a bathroom, or they were going to have problems. So she sprang up from Noah's lap. Remembering that there was a bathroom just off the kitchen. And she raced there, making it just in time as she began to retch into the toilet. Her frame trembled as the water and small amount of food she did have came back up. It wasnt enough for her stomach though. It twisted, trying to wring itself out. Hydrochloric Acid scalded her throat and nose, bringing tears to her eyes.

She could hear people talking behind her, and a hand on her back, but the hand, mixed with vomiting, made her feel greasy, and dirty. So she tried to shrug it away.

Dry heaves wracking her body until finally, she was done. A strand of drool lingered on her lips, and she feebly reached for the toilet paper, wiping it away, and attempting to flush the toilet. She failed, and simply laid herself out on the floor mat, quitting.

Noah stood over her, worry written clearly on his face "Im fine" She murmured "Its only a stomach bug" Snuffling before feeling exhaustion hit her again. But she didnt want to go back to bed. Bed was where she initially got sick. She just wanted Noah...

[Lotus]

Noah's nerves calmed down slightly when Ravenna finished her water and snuggled back down into her. His mother decided to grant Ravenna's wishes and not call the doctor, but when she jumped off of his lap and ran to the toilet he knew they had to get more help than simple water and rest.

Running behind Ravenna the whole way, Noah was constantly by her side even when she was heaving over the toilet. It hurt that she kept trying to shrug him away but he could understand why; it wasn't exactly the most pleasant thing to witness and he could only imagine how embarrassed and disgusting she was feeling at that moment in time. Still, when she collapsed on the floor, he lifted her head and rested it on his knees. He brushed the hair from out of her eyes and from where it was plastered to her head in sweat. His whole body started shaking from fear that Ravenna wasn't going to be okay. He kept stroking the top of her head, but he noticed Ravenna's eyes drooping. "Baby? Stay with me sweetheart. Stay with us. Keep those beautiful eyes open." He whispered softly, yet forcefully at the same time.

He looked up to find his mother at the bathroom door, but the strange thing was he had tears in her eyes. She smiled sadly at him and if he wasn't so used to his mother being disappointed in him and hating the person he'd become, he would have thought he saw pride shining in those eyes of hers. She told him the doctor was on his way and he felt a weight lifted off his shoulders slightly. He looked back down to Ravenna to see her trying to nod off again and he shook his head, "Ravenna, stay awake for me. Help is coming. I know you can do it. I mean, how could you not look at my face." He tried to joke and a smile spread across his face when the corners of her lips turned up ever so slightly.

"Son. Bring her out of the blasted toilet and get her on something comfy. Do you not think?" His fathers voice boomed around the house and Noah hung his head in shame, why hadn't he thought of that? He slipped his arms under her knees and supported her back as he picked his girl up ever so gently. He heard his mother reprimanding his father, but it was no use, especially when his father was right. He didn't think.

He walked, with Ravenna, out of the bathroom and up the stairs to his bedroom. He laid her down on top of the covers and sat down next to her, brushing her hair from her forehead again. Just then his mother came in with a bowl of water and a cloth; he knew what that was for, he remembered if from when Moni was ill. He took the bowl and cloth without a word and started dabbing the wet cloth across Ravenna's forehead in a way to ease the pain and torment she was in.

[Cham]

Ven could feel every inch of her body. Just as she began to feel better after emptying her stomach, every muscle began to seize. Excruciating pain rolling through her in waves. Every minute or so, her body would relax, allowing her to catch her breath before gripping her once again.

But through the pain, she knew she had something to cling to. Her body curled in the fetal position, head resting in Noah's lap. Her fingers weakly grasped at his pants through the pain, but when her body gave her those fleeting moments of relief, she simply lay there limply. Vaguely aware that he was running his fingers through her hair.

He spoke, and she missed it the first time, simply snuffling, assuming there was some fluid running about her head. But the second time, he shook her. She gasped softly, and tried to look up at him, her eyes wide with confusion. But giggling after a moment when she understood. Attempting to swallow and murmuring "So pretty... So pretty" And trying to close her eyes again.

She was lost to darkness and pain until feeling like she was floating, or falling, or something. Her eyes flew open (In reality, simply cracked open) and looked up to see Noah carrying her. Her guardian angel. she tried to grab hold of his shirt, but simply couldnt, settling with her hand nestled in the neck of his shirt. All too soon, she felt a firm, yet soft something beneath her. This time though, she simply couldnt open her eyes "So tired" She yawned, smiling softly in her moment of relief before groaning, turning, and clutching her stomach, letting herself be tended to.

[Lotus]

Noah shook his head, not that it did much good. He was a mess, but he was trying so hard to try and keep calm in front of his mother and father. For once his mother wasn't reprimanding him. She was being the caring mother he once remembered, his father on the other hand was standing in the doorway of his bedroom with a glower spread across his face. Too caught up in his worrying state and trying to keep Ravenna's temperature at bay, he nearly missed her speaking. His eyes flew wide though upon recognising the words; he feared the worst. "No baby. You can't sleep just yet. Stay awake for me. Keep those gorgeous eyes open for me. Please baby."

He hoped it would work, he hoped the sound of his voice would keep her awake until the doctor came. Just then there was a knocking on the door. Noah's head whipped around to see his mother rushing out of the room, brushing past his father and only minutes later she was back in the room with the doctor. He took one look at the situation and got to work straight away. Noah looked back down to see Ravenna's eyes closed, panic welled up inside him but he still saw her breathing which helped to calm him a minuscule amount.

"Please. Work quickly." He pleaded with the doctor just as his mother came and wrapped her arms around his shoulders and moved him away so the doctor had space to work. Tears started slipping down his cheeks silently, but he didn't want his father to see so he brushed them away hastily.

[Cham]

Van listened hard, her breathing shallow as pain ran through her. The doctor began examining her, a cold stethoscope to her chest, causing her to wince as the rest of her body burned with fever. She tried to open her eyes when the doctor asked her to, but simply couldnt. He had to hold her lids open as he checked her eyes. Seeing them cloudy and unfocused.

But the worst was when he began feeling her stomach. Starting on the left, she groaned softly, but when he hit her lower right side, she screamed, and shoved him back. But that burst of energy cost her dearly. She lay on her side now, whimpering, her arms around her.

The doctor's face was white "I need to remove her appendix immediatly" He said softly, looking over to Noah. "Please call an ambulance. I will administer the morphine now." He knelt down to his bag, looking up at the frozen Noah, and craning his neck to see Mr. Culver. The brutish man gruffed, and stomped down the stairs, his shouts could be heard through the house.

The doctor pulled out a long needle, murmuring to Ven exactly what he was going to do, and she simply whimpered, spasming every so often. "Noah, will you be able to hold her down while I administer?"

[Lotus]

Noah froze with the words ambulance. He didn't want to go to a hospital, he associated those places with bad memories. Memories of when he nearly killed his little sister. He didn't want to go back. He couldn't. But as he looked down at Ravenna, he realised he had to. He didn't have a choice, much like Ravenna didn't. He had vowed to stay by her side every step of the way and he wasn't going to break that promise now because he was scared. So he pushed his worries down and nodded his head stiffly to the doctor.

He walked back over to the bed again and clambered on to it from the other side. He forced the tears back when he saw the pain the was spread across his girls face. He couldn't stand to see her like that. He held her shoulders as gently as he could whilst still be forceful. "Hey baby. Shh. Everything is going to get better now. The pain is going to go and we're going to go and fix you up. The doctor is going to help you. Shh baby. It'll be okay." He murmured by her ear before placing sweet kisses on her slightly damp forehead.

Suddenly, Ravenna's body relaxed in his arms; the morphine was kicking in. He sighed, knowing Ravenna would no longer be in as much pain as before. Minutes later they heard the sirens of the ambulance and Noah looked to the doctor for confirmation before picking his girl up in his arms and rushing out of the room. Just as he got out of his bedroom door he turned back to see the pale face of his mother. "Mum, please will you come with me?" She looked shocked at first, her eyes wide, but then she nodded her head as tears streaked down her face. "But keep dad here with Moni. I don't want Moni back in that place." She nodded and that was enough for Noah to rush out of the house and to the awaiting ambulance.

His mother clambered in shortly after him, along with the doctor and they sped away to the place he dreaded the most.

[Cham]

Everything should have been black to Ven. But she could see alternating colours of the strobe lights, demanding attention and cooperation. She felt a cool breeze, causing her to curl up into her source of warmth, but that was replaced after a moment with a cold, hard surface. She shivered, and tried to reach out, but missed. Her hand flopped down, and she gave up, giving into the cold darkness.

The last thing she heard was a call for oxygen.


*****

When Ven woke, she once again, could only hear. Frusterated, she attempted to force her eyes open, but failed. Only managing to get them to flutter. She could hear footsteps, a door opening, and not so hushed voices. Someone fiddled with a machine next to her, and the only way she could describe what coursed through her veins, was liquid peace.

*****

The second time she woke, her hand was clasped with someone elses. Hair tickled the back of it, and she tried to move it, cracking her eyes open, and feeling both relief and peace at the sight of Noah beside her. She managed out a groan before being sucked back down.

*****

Her body was lead. A dull ache came from her lower right side, and this time, she could open her eyes. They felt like rocks, but at least she could do it. "Noah" She groaned, trying to sit herself up.

[Lotus]

It was torturous. As soon as they got to the hospital Ravenna was snatched from Noah's grasp and hauled into the operating room. Himself and his mother were directed to the waiting room, with no word from anyone as to what was going on. This went on for hours on end. Noah was worried, he was upset and he was getting angrier by the minute. He kept storming out of the waiting room to the front desk, demanding answers, yet he was always escorted back to the waiting room with nothing more than more anger. His mother looked upon him with sad and comforting eyes, she kept whispering her words of wisdom to him whenever he broke down enough to fall into her awaiting arms. He missed his mother, this mother, and it took him nearly losing Ravenna to realise that.

Five hours later and a knock came to the door. Noah bolted upright and his mother jumped up, rubbing her eyes from where she'd fallen asleep. Noah hadn't been able to close his eyes because every time he did the only thing he could imagine was the pain that was etched on Ravenna's face. He looked to the doctor hopefully, but his face was grave and Noah cried out. This wasn't fair!

"Mr. Culver please calm yourself. Ravenna is out of the operating room and her appendix has been successfully removed. She has been transferred to a separate room so that we can monitor her progress. But that isn't all." And just like Noah's heart sunk again. "Miss Justesen is pregnant. There were complications during the operation and we are sorry to inform you this, but it's hit or miss as to whether both Miss Justesen and the baby pull through. We are perfectly sure Miss Justesen will make a full recovery, but the fate of the baby is out of our hands. We are incredibly sorry."

Noah fell to his knees. Pregnant. The word kept swimming around his head. How could that be? They'd always been careful! He put his head in his hands as he cried out. He felt his mothers arms wrap around him as she shushed him, but it wasn't enough. He was a failure and now his whole family would disown him even more. He turned to his mother as he felt the door shut as the doctor left. "I'm so sorry mum. I never meant to get her pregnant. I love her but now I've just found out I could be a dad and we could still lose the baby. I wanted to do this properly, get married settle down and then think about kids, but I guess I fucked up too much to have that life."

"Now now darling. Don't speak like that. I'm sorry, more than you should be. I know you've been trying to turn your life around. In this day and age it doesn't matter if you're married before a child or not, as long as the two people involved are in love. And you, my dear son, are completely in love with that girl and she is with you. At first I was sceptical of the relationship, but seeing the two of you today, I know you'll make it work." He nodded his head numbly, not really paying attention to his mother. "Shall we go see her?" She whispered and Noah could only nod his head again.

They asked the receptionist the room number and they went inside. Noah's breath caught in his throat at the sight of his girl. Pale, with tubes stuck in her arms and an oxygen mask on her face. She looked so fragile; nothing like the Ravenna he was used to seeing. Yet, he still loved her. Even with he looking so beaten up and worn down he still couldn't help but think she was beautiful.

Another couple of hours passed, and his mother eventually went home to get some sleep but Noah wouldn't leave. He had to be there when she woke up. His hand had slipped into Ravenna's still one the moment they entered her room and he placed his head on it and he watched her face, willing her to wake up. An hour after his mother left his head shot up at the sound of his name from those perfect lips of his girl. "Ravenna!" He grinned from ear to ear that she was awake, and leant up to kiss her forehead. Once he'd sat back down though he became sombre. "We need to talk..." His voice cracked out.

[Cham]

"Woah" Ven grimaced, swallowing to wet her dry throat. "Quietly please?" She murmured, sniffing and reaching for the bed controls. She began to sit it up, unable to pull herself up. But she paused at just how solemn Noah had gotten all of the sudden.

"What is it?" She murmured, reaching out for his hand, and pulling him to sit on the edge of her bed. "Just tell me, how sick am I? I can handle it..." She took a deep breath, and squeezed his hand, her heart beating fast. Rolling her eyes at the monitor that sped up along with it. The sooner she could leave this hospital, the better...

[Lotus]

Noah shook his head at her words, it was ironic really. Ravenna would be perfectly fine, it was the baby that may not be. Noah swallowed over the lump in his throat and moved the chair up closer to the bed, wrapping her hand in his own. He didn't know how he was going to say these words to her, she'd already been through so much and he didn't know if this news would break her or not.

He tried to look in her eyes, he really did but it was difficult. All he saw reflected in them was pain and he wished more than anything that he could take that pain away. Yet with what he was about to tell her he was only going to be intensifying that. He had no reason to be happy; berating himself mentally.

"Ravenna, you're not sick anymore. You had appendicitis, but they've removed your appendix successfully. You're in here to monitor your recovery because... because... During the operation there were complications. And... Okay first let me tell you this. I'm sorry 'cause I thought we were always careful and I would never wish this on you but I love you. More than anyone in the world, more than anything. I can't imagine my life without you..." He trailed off as he saw the look from Ravenna telling him to spit it out. "You're p-pregnant Ravenna. Our baby. But... they can't do anything. Our baby may or may not survive 'cause there were complications during the operation. I'm... I'm so sorry Ravenna." With that tears streaked down his cheeks freely.

[Cham]

Ravenna sat still for several moments after Noah finished speaking. Blinking slowly, trying to process the information. Her mind and emotions seemed to shut down, minutes passed, and Ravenna felt confused. Noah wasnt explaining anymore. Yet she was waiting for more. Waiting for it to all be a joke.

She hadnt meant to, but she cracked a smile. A giggle creeped out of her throat, and the all at once, a dam burst. She was laughing. Howling, holding onto her sides as she felt the pain from lack of oxygen, stitches pulling, and laughter. But she couldnt stop it.

Noah was glaring holes into her. But no... This all had to be a joke. A cruel, horrible joke. His face told the truth though, and in a single second she went from cackling laughter, to hysterical sobs. Tears began rolling down her cheeks, and she felt Noah pulling her into his arms. But she didnt want to be there. This was all a big mistake. Her whole life with him was a mistake.

"NO!" She screamed "MY BABY NOAH!!! OUR! MOTHER! FUCKING! BABY!" Her fists beat into his chest, but he held onto her tighter if anything. Tears soaked his shirt as she collapsed into his arms. Gripping onto him for dear life.

She didnt know how long she cried for, but once she was done, she felt numb again. A doctor had cracked the door open, clearing his throat. Noah made a move to get off the bed, but she clung to him, glaring at the doctor, daring him to ask Noah to leave. But he didnt.

[Lotus]

Noah was shocked at Ravenna's first reaction, laughter. Why would she be laughing? But then all of a sudden it was like a switch had been flicked and she was screaming the place down. Noah was shocked all over again. He wrapped his arms around her and it hurt when she tried to force herself away from him, but then she gripped onto him tightly when she fully broke down. He couldn't say any words, so he let her cry herself out till her body relaxed in his arms.

When the door creaked open he shot the doctor a tired look and he thanked the heavens when he didn't force him to leave. No one in their right mind would split apart a couple after they'd received such news. And if they did then, in Noah's mind, they had no soul to them. When the door closed, Noah placed a soft kiss on the top of her head. "I'm so sorry baby. I never imagine this for us. I never imagine I'd fuck up your life. I never wanted that. For once I wanted things to go right, I wanted to have a relationship that I believed in with a woman I loved. I wanted all that but I've gone and screwed it all up again. And I'm so sorry!" He broke down again after that and after around half an hour he sobered up again.

"I'll pay for everything you and the baby will ever need. I'll work more to earn more for the baby and for you to have a safe home. You won't see me unless it's for special visits-" He was cut off when he was glared at from Ravenna. He swallowed, not understanding the situation. Wasn't it better if he left? He'd already messed up enough, he just needed to leave. Another district sounded good to him, even if he'd bare the pain and the guilt every day for the rest of his life. And oh god, if the baby didn't survive, he didn't know what he would do. Everything was his fault!

[Cham]

Ravenna listened to Noah's rambling, nodding softly, but not really paying much mind until she realized exactly what he was saying. She rolled her eyes at his dramatics, and tried not to feel like such a hypocrite after her melt down.

She forced herself to sit up, pulling out of his arms for a moment, before taking his hand and pressing it to her stomach. "Noah. Do you really think I'm going to leave you because together we decided to act as one. WE, TOGETHER didnt take the right precautions. Not simply you. I should have stopped to notice, or something. But no. I was stupid too."

Patting the bed beside her, she waited the moments until he gave in and climbed onto the bed beside her. Her head rested on his arm, and her fingers weaved into his. "Youre not going anywhere my love" She murmured.

[Lotus]

Noah couldn't believe what Ravenna was saying in response to him. He couldn't believe that she still wanted him to be around if their baby survived. At a moment like that, a person should have felt relieved and ecstatic, but all Noah could do was worry and berate himself over the stupid choices he'd made to get them into this situation in the first place.

There was no way to make it better.

"I'm so sorry..." Was all he could mumble out as his fingers absent-mindedly stroked Ravenna's stomach. The action spoke a thousand words; that he would love their baby unconditionally and that he wanted to be there through everything their little one went through. Yet he couldn't bring himself to realise that point. It was useless to even try to be happy about the situation he'd gotten them into because no matter what Ravenna said, it was his fault. He should have always kept in check what he was doing and when he was doing it, yet he let the most important part of all that slip.

[Cham]

Ravenna curled up as small as she could into Noah's side. Fear gripped her. How would she care for this child when she clearly couldnt even care for herself? The child would be better off in Noah's hands. After all, he had done a perfectly fine job with Moni. He had learned his lesson with her accident, and Ven had seen how it had shaped him. How careful, but loving he was toward her.

Her body relaxed with a single exhale, and she melded into him. "Noah... What are we going to do? We dont even have a house... for all we know, youre parents have thrown our things out already..." Sniffling, she laid a hand atop his, pausing the stroaking of her stomach for only a moment.

[Lotus]

Noah shook his head at her words and rested his forehead against her own. He sighed softly, knowing full well that those troubles were at the forefront of both their minds. He hated the fact that he couldn't fully care for Ravenna, yet without her he would be more lost than he already was. No matter what he didn't want to let her go, no matter how selfish that made him seem.

"I don't want you worrying about those things. My parents won't have done that; they're not that cruel even if they try to show they are. My mum... She's changed her attitude towards me and you again. Ever since you became ill she's been the mother I remember; the proud mother that loves her son more than anything in the world. My dad hasn't changed his tune all that much, but he eased off a little thanks to mum. She'll reason with my dad, I know she will. Just trust me to fix all of this. I'ff find us a home, I'll work more to pay the bills and I'll buy anything you or our baby needs. I promise. I just need you to trust me." At the end he tilted his head slightly and pressed a soft kiss on his girls lips before pulling away and looking into her eyes for conformation of what he'd just spoken of.

[Cham]

Ven's eyes glazed over. She sniffed back tears, touched at the protectiveness in his voice. His unconscious pull to keep her close. Swallowing, she nodded, and kissed him back softly, slowly, showing she still loved him despite their mistakes.

With a sigh, she curled her head into his chest, nuzzling him softly. "I love you Noah. You know that right?" Her fear was that he didnt believe her. That he would disappear the moment she closed her eyes. Taking the love she had for him with him. "I want to grow old with you..."

Her eyelids drooped, but she held on tightly to her man. Arms wrapped around his middle tightly, as though she could secure his body to hers.